Saturday, 30 January 2016

The theme of home in AHWOSG






The theme of ‘home’ in AHWOSG

At the very beginning, Eggers first description is of the ‘small tall bathroom window’. By using the two juxta positioning adjectives ‘small’ and ‘tall’, this portrays the unpredictable moments in Dave’s life, also one of the connotations with small is short, so to use the lexis ‘tall’ in contrast to this shows that Dave’s home life is different to what the social norm is. This also makes the reader imagine the scenario where it is difficult for Dave to reach and see clearly out of the window, which could be a metaphor for him not being able to see and predict his future, or it could also be Eggers suggesting that Dave cannot see when and who is going to pass away next in his life, and the anticipation and fear of not being able to see scares Dave. Later on in this description he describes the distorted view out the window from his position, that the ‘December yard is gray and scratchy, the trees calligraphic.’ The connotations the reader thinks of when they see the preposition December are coldness, snow, family, Christmas and in a way, cheerfulness but Eggers has described outside with the adjectives ‘gray’ and ‘scratchy’ which is opposites to what the month of December is supposedly all about. This is effective because it is reiterating the fact that Dave doesn’t have a ‘normal’ home, and that instead of running around in the snow, or having happy times with family, he has to look after his sick and dying mother and eggers uses the adjective ‘scratchy’ which has connotation with illness and pain to hint about his mother. ‘gray’ is a faded, depressing and miserable colour, so to describe nature that is supposed to be vivid and bright this shows Eggers view on the world. ‘Calligraphic’ is a noun, and is known as decorative handwriting, or the art of producing decorative handwriting. To describe the trees in this way sounds eerie, but beautiful, because handwriting is carefully laid out and made, perfected with a pen and so he could be suggesting that although he views nature in a dark aspect he does believe that it was carefully hand crafted and beautiful. Linking this with the theme of home, eggers could be suggesting that because outside the home is dark and depressing he would rather be inside his home with his family than out in the world exploring, however he could also be suggesting that his home is oppressive and he wants to break free from the ties of his home because he is unhappy there and wants to go and explore the beautiful unknown. 

Eggers calls the house ‘a factory’ which is a noun that has connotations with work; we can infer from this that eggers doesn’t believe that he has a home with his family, and that coming ‘home’ is just like coming to work, and the connotations of the noun work is stress, tiredness, and pressure. Eggers uses repetition a lot in his memoir which is quite effective because it tends to reiterate his point more and makes the reader read more in to what he is saying. He repeats the noun ‘sofa’ on page two, and uses the transitive verb to describe that his ‘mother is on the couch’. Laying on the couch has connotations with laziness, relaxing, illness, unproductiveness or tiredness. At the start of the description his mother was just sat on the couch, with him saying that she was able to walk and go out but at the end he says she’s ‘not moving from the couch, reclining on the couch during the day and sleeping there at night.’ In a way eggers is stating that his mother is a constant at home, but we know that at the end of the chapter she passes. On this page it also reiterates the idea of Dave working when he gets home, and that because he had lost his father and his mother was too sick to even get up off of the couch he had to look after the house, which in the time it was more likely that the role and responsibility of housekeeping is left with the mother.

Egger's describes his family home with adjectives like ‘clean’ and ‘classy’ as well as describing it as being ‘decorative looking' with family heirlooms and antiques but however his description of his home with him and Toph is that it is dirty, his couch is ruined (unlike at the start) and his house is described more as a 'bachelor pad' rather than a family home. Eggers suggests that Dave is more focused on a home he can play and mess around in because he wants to break free from what responsibilities he had around the house with his whole family in the past, so he passes a lot of the chores on to Toph. This shows his childlike state of mind, and how he wasn't ready to grow up and move in to a house and make his home yet, but because of his parents passing he had to. There is more description of the home as a noun at the start, and it turns in to more of an abstract noun as the memoir carries on. Eggers focuses a lot on car journeys, which could be a metaphor for Dave not wanting to settle down yet. The car journey represents the idea that Dave doesn’t know where home is, or what home is. He’s not sure where he’s going, and he’s stuck between needing to look after Toph, but also wanting to live his life like people his age are too. 

[Here is where my mind goes blank, I'm not sure whether I've done this correctly!]

Thursday, 28 January 2016

Theme of home, essay preparation

1)repetition of sofa in first description, first page, connotations with laziness, unproductive behaviour, he had to look after his home, wasn't a normal home for a person his age(looking after his mum as she threw up green liquid)


2)'its not that our family has no taste, its just that our family's taste is inconsistent'- description of home


3)'but the family room, the only room where any of us has spent time, has always been, for better or worse, the ultimate reflection of our true inclination'


4)'the ceiling in one corner of the living room is stained in concentric circles of yellow and brown, thanks to...


5)Constantly moving homes, not consistent. home is supposed to be permanent, but then again so is family. I don't think he really knows where home is.


6)clean and decorative looking, 'classy' with family heirlooms and antiques but description of his home with him and toph- dirty, couch is ruined(unlike at start) 'bachelor pad' more than a home and he is more focused on a home he can play and mess around in. Shows his childlike state of mind, how he wasn't ready to grow up and move in to a house and make I his home yet, but because of his parents passing he had to. Almost rejecting responsibility of creating a home by not cleaning it, passing chores on to toph.

7)alot of car journeys, metaphor for not being able to settle down?

8)Having to take on pretty much every role in the household, too much pressure for him.

9)difficulty in getting someone to sell them the house, a lot of people dont think that hes capable of owning a house and because he is the older brother hes not seen as responsible, but is this just the way hes portrayed himself to everyone?

10)doesnt want to be 'home' with toph,(babysitting scene) wants to be free without ties to responsibilities but theyve been passed down on to him, but hes trying all of his might to push it away.



Presentation of women in AHWOSG

1)'Merediths body is gyrating, her parts becoming bigger, smaller, bigger, smaller'
Talking about her like shes an object, or a piece of meat. derogatory. Repetition, representing how those thoughts are vibrating around his mind. Almost has an effect of it being louder and then quieter.

2)'I expected attractive, single mothers flirting.'
Misconception of what the event is actually for, believes women are only there for his pleasure.
Doesnt allow them individual identity.Is the 'single' lexis foreshadowing to when he cheats on his girlfriend kirsten? By using the verb flirting, instead of 'to flirt with me', hes suggesting that he wants them to make all the effort, whilst he sits back and basks in all of the attention. Are women just another pawn in his game of life? kind of a detachment from women aside from sexual desires.

3)'seen her before... guessed that she's single'
believes women are an open book, predictable, quick and easy to judge them. In saying 'seen her before' if he was a regular at Tophs school, he would've obviously seen the mothers before, shows how new to this he is.

4)'the woman, this one looking at us'
'this one' quite rude lexical phrase, instead of 'this lady' etc, shows lack of respect or care for women.

5)''I wanted to say so many things-that i was actually dating someone else, kirsten, and that what we had done was a mistake'
Him cheating and lying, not really showing respect for women at all. Regrets what he did, but is this just because he's scared he'll get caught? That kirsten will find out? Or maybe he's done this because he wants to break the attachment he has to kirsten, he doesnt want to keep attachments with women because of his mother leaving so suddenly.

6)'i knew she was strong, but then there were these new words coming from her face, these small shadowy words' ... '"no this is good" i said undressing her.'

7)'"raceless"
"genderless"
"youth"
"strength"...
"oceans"
"fire"
"sex"
Our mouths are all over each other.'

8)'i have no idea how i began talking to her, or much of what we said'...'then we were in her bed'             Needs physical attention from women to feel wanted, any deep conversation always leads to sex.



Tuesday, 26 January 2016

'we get application' scene notes

'We're all lying. We've all seen the show.'
perceptive and smart understanding here.


'we recognise so much that is vaguely familiar'
Honest with opinion, links things back to him and his past.


'do we talk like that, look like that?Yes. It could not be. It is. No.'
Shows indecisiveness, use of italics shows that hes talking to himself which could suggest that he is lonely and has no one but himself to talk to. Also shows incredulous thoughts, he doesn't even believe himself which could also show trust issues.


'after i get over my fleeting paranoia'
clearly not fleeting as there is a repeating theme of anxiousness throughout the book. Lexis paranoia isn't something fleeting, it is a deep set emotion so in a way i feel that he could lying about the severity of his emotions.


' "what kind of help do you need?" They ask.
  "what do you want to do?"
   "what kind of hours will it require?"
   "what kind of time do you have?" '
Answering a question with a question, shows lack of confidence or knowledge. repetition of lexis what.